take me away from me

with no one left to save you from yourself
Saturday, February 1

[[fused::burnt overnight

+ure the fff-in devil in the angelic suit.ima juz fatally been hypnotized.
eyes blurred.hands trembled as i watched my world crumbles.

+ i cant remember the last time i've seen yoo + //agein

cried alone in the dark 1:45 AM

+liquid dreams//
the pain is excruciating.itz nv ta be forgotten [[agony
how m i suppose to get yoo to believe smth tat i dun even believe in
-i juz wanna get over n done wif

what i believe in today.mayb diff tml.
ask me wads my ultimate contenment and yoo wun haf an answer
-itz all in the fickleness-
juz when i tot i was there.they pushed mie back and i had ta start all over again -unjustice-

+blinks+
in the blink of my wakin eye.i see the future tats nv to be.i noe.itz gonna be hard.tough.wadever it mayb.i wun lose tiz battle -strivin on-
[[these wounds dun seem to heal]]

cried alone in the dark 1:44 AM

Hey.im writing to you
Not to tell you
that i stil hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
how we fell apart
how this fell apart

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry

Why weren't you there
on the nights that i cried
its not okay.but im alright

Those were just the
long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years
learning how to survive
and now im writing just to
let you know im stil alright

and all i dream is you

Loving you.feel so right
i cant deny it.in my eye
Oh baby.tell me why
why did you.say goodbye

You were the
The last thing on my mind



left to face myself alone
xuantong
24may
escapist@death-star.com
toh_xuantong@hotmail
i can't abandon everyone

::love.me::
my words that nobody understands
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Fuck off//Leave
The inside bruises
Stop just whats killing me
And now i see how i bleed for you


The person falling here is me
i can hear you whispering



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but you cant even hear me scream

oh my love please dont cry
i'l wash my bloody hands
and we'l start a new life

i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight

Don't you know that
all i really want is you
Gotta know that
all i really need is you

and if i make it through today
will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in pace
and if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same

its me against this world
and i dont care
i dont care
silent screams

the scars run deep down
inside this tattooed body

when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night
do you even wonder for awhile

are you happy out there
in this great wide world

i died in my dreams
wads that supposed to mean
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire