take me away from me

with no one left to save you from yourself
Friday, March 26


hugged her ((:

confronted the blob.settled stuffs.m irritated.

cried alone in the dark 11:08 PM

Wednesday, March 24


m so happy can.heh.did some changes.and finally found blink182!
whee.they rawk.Yupp.heh.ohh and thanks huijun.heh.for being my
eyes.Alrighte.shall blog soon.im too happy to think.heh.yay.rawks!

was so stoned in class today.no idea wad happen.totally no mood.
shi was like asking whether i was drugged or wad.Barhs.tskktskk.

she:hey.yoo okkay not?
me:Yupp.alrighte.
she:Aiyoo.dont liddat kayys
me:Mmm.
-she called once i sent tat msg-
she sensed it ((: was like o.0
den faster pick up.heh.m glad
shes nice -huggs- sryy but m too delighted.

cried alone in the dark 8:29 PM

Saturday, March 13

went swensens after xcountry.
aint in tat a great mood.tired aft the run
everyone was practically stoned.

When you smile, i melt inside
im not worthy for a minute of ure time

cried alone in the dark 10:40 AM

Wednesday, March 10

i passed my amaths.err 20/30 <-- like 10 marks is frm liting n shi.
not at all glorified wad.anw.tmr is amaths common test.ohh wad e hell.
m suffering frm indijestion.eat too much.bursting stomach.
gg to run for the x-country.gotta exercise.slim down.m FAT.
having headaches very often.pain like wad heck.
stayed in sch to 'study' amaths. ended up doodling on the paper.
tiz is crapp.Os are coming.im dying

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

cried alone in the dark 8:15 PM

Saturday, March 6

fuck it. //im dreaming of her


red blooded

cried alone in the dark 3:02 PM

Hey.im writing to you
Not to tell you
that i stil hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
how we fell apart
how this fell apart

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry

Why weren't you there
on the nights that i cried
its not okay.but im alright

Those were just the
long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years
learning how to survive
and now im writing just to
let you know im stil alright

and all i dream is you

Loving you.feel so right
i cant deny it.in my eye
Oh baby.tell me why
why did you.say goodbye

You were the
The last thing on my mind



left to face myself alone
xuantong
24may
escapist@death-star.com
toh_xuantong@hotmail
i can't abandon everyone

::love.me::
my words that nobody understands
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Fuck off//Leave
The inside bruises
Stop just whats killing me
And now i see how i bleed for you


The person falling here is me
i can hear you whispering



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but you cant even hear me scream

oh my love please dont cry
i'l wash my bloody hands
and we'l start a new life

i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight

Don't you know that
all i really want is you
Gotta know that
all i really need is you

and if i make it through today
will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in pace
and if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same

its me against this world
and i dont care
i dont care
silent screams

the scars run deep down
inside this tattooed body

when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night
do you even wonder for awhile

are you happy out there
in this great wide world

i died in my dreams
wads that supposed to mean
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire