take me away from me

with no one left to save you from yourself
Wednesday, July 28

.::All the memory so close to me just fade away::.
----it was nice to know that we had it all----
 
>>>>>so much for my happy ending<<<<<
 
all i want is to close my eyes___and sleep forever
i hate to leave my comfy bed early in the morning
and drag myself to sch when i know i'l friggin hate it.
dont you think it just consists of too much whores
that proves to be so much of an eyesore.

[[Drift Away]]
i cant go on like this anymore
dont tell me i stil exist.
i'l just freaking moodswing my life away.


cried alone in the dark 7:15 PM

Sunday, July 25

i swear im going to confront that whore.
Fuck you, you hoe.
just you watch.and yeah please note that:
we fucking dont know each other
i hate it when you say til like you knew me.
Dream on
 
i cant really blame you
cause some ppl just dont believe in wad i say
but den again if it wasnt for you
which i really should thank
i wouldnt be in this fuck shit
 
thou things are settled.and cleared
but i stil cant stand you
haha.probably thats because
you're still the fucking bitch!
 
changed my mind bout gg to the fir 'concert at wm
went fren's hse.baked cookie.ahaha.turned out pretty well

just realized how broke im.
but that aint gg to stop me from buying stuffs
look out. here i come. i have this whole list.

__if you want. you can slide my way
 
some things just cant be erase.
once again
-help!


cried alone in the dark 11:42 PM

Saturday, July 24

one love one shot its all we ever got

girl you got me started now i'm not gonna stop

now slide along side yeah baby thats right

i'm gonna show you the time of your life

oh pretty girly come and dance with me

move that naughty body come close to me

now slide along side yeah baby thats right

i'm gonna show you the time of your life


had racial harmony on ytd.was alright lar.kind of boring thou
spent the whole day slacking after school.i just had to tour wm
for like loads of time.walk til my legs can just collaspe happily

and some bitches are just so irritating

i bet she dont even know bout it.



__im just a prisoner of love always hid from the light__
 
im grinning from here

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
to here.
maybe its even longer than that but blogger cant take it
 
(:




cried alone in the dark 9:11 AM

Monday, July 19

FCUK.
Complications
tell me bout it


cried alone in the dark 11:24 PM

Friday, July 16

i spent two hours eating non-stop
m awfully full. haha. we ended up walking zig zag
fat people cant walk str8. hehh. anyways im like
feeling how fat now.saw this damn cute dog in the
morn.stupid parents just refuse to keep a pet.dog.
especially.Hmmprhhs.anyways tmr have to do cip
thing which is like compulsory now.haha pon-ed it
last time.have to wake shi up tmr.that lazy person -shakes head
 
see wad i meant-   regret
 
wadever
 
hehh.weird ppl are appearing lately
funny in the sense.can just spend my life away laughing
 
-i smiled


cried alone in the dark 6:37 PM

Monday, July 12

Okay.finally im like back.hehh

friday
i just sat happily outside the general office
for the whole day thanks to some yaw.GROWLS
and its so lame because they kept noticing my
blue contacts that they din even catch the
black ankle socks i was wearing.retarded la
it was fun la.much of a catchin up private
session with diana.she was apparently caught
for her tinted hair la.hehh and people like
neo and those walked past were ard to keep
us company.and so i was spared from having
chem with yaw.and she was so stupid because
she called my phone and concluded no one was
at home when she wanted to notify my parents
i laughed til i died for that pls

saturday
i went to the moscow circus.ahaha.it was damn nice can
especially the two soft-toy like dogs.can just faint la
some acts were so breath-takin that everyone was like
squealing for them.and there is this very shuai-ded long
blonde hair guy! haha. gorgeous. mwhohoo -screams
and yes.i missed SimpleLife. boohoos /sulks
but its okay. i get to eat cotton candy! hehh i love it please

sunday
i bought phoneeeeee. hahaa. 6610i
we went like walking here and there. me n sis
cause we wanted to sell our three phones to buy
new phones.hehh. and yes thou was disappointed
at first but later we finally bought it
6610i with plan. Me. my sis take the simcard
6220 w/o plan. Sis.
m happy hehh.

Today
i know. the order is abit weird only wad
hahaa.its supposed to be opposite with latest on top
anyways. i wore clear contacts and white socks to school today!
m so prouddaaa myself. hehh -beams-
chitchatted with neo in his office. ahah. damn entertainin
and err the forever lame grp ppl are so very lame.
need me to emphasize more? hehh

and yeah some things are just so confusing
so i guess i'l leave it. til god knows when
bahhahah.

ohh and did i say that windstruck is like how nice
and yes.i haven watch mean girls yet. soon la. hehh

im officially broke.
no not really.left like 10+
but its terrible.today is only monday

im waiting anxiously for my mms to be activated
hahaa. my phone is like how empty wad. hehh.

perhaps just a little bit of irony
just that little.
a little means alot.
and i mean ALOT.
i hate you.

cried alone in the dark 6:58 PM

Saturday, July 3

::too sweet to be true::

and im in my own world again.like theres no tmr
-do hand action-
you// i really hope you can see this thou


Listenin compre was alright.Oral up next
Mon is holiday! (: Youth day

i've forgotten wad to blog
must be you.im so preoccupied by you
and that everything doesnt seem that appealing to me anymore
except you.

okay.dont believe me
im crapping
and mayb the you doesnt even exist at all
haha. dont be a fool and believe wadever i say kay
and dont try to think i'l be serious this time
hehh.confusing.so just treat it as its invisible

school stinks.
im always moodswingin for no reasons.
probably thats the sch spirit for me?

but i cant be bothered
how can i? im too into you

a fairytale come true? or is that im thinkin too much
i'l choose the latter

for this is me.
i dont wanna think bout it
i dont dare to

i wanna sleep and never wake up
because thats where all my fantasies live
but i know
someone will always be there
to FUCKING WAKE ME UP //growls-

cried alone in the dark 1:31 PM

Thursday, July 1

i will work hard.
Olevel chi listenin is on friday and chi oral on the coming wed

NccDay today.
i wore.haha and went crazy over taking photos
as usual lar.aint that wad self-obsessed ppl do? haha

photos uploaded.

rained in the morning.no parade! ):
thats so sad lar. anyways so we were in the concourse with ghost to watch us
and. yes!thanks uh magdalyn.early in the morning come give ppl morning call wad
haha.as in she boo-ded me so suddenly at some weird corner lor
-too stunned til speechless
and she left my eyes wide open for the past few minutes.
thanks alot kay.

bought lime.but 8days had my eyecandies in it
and went crazy over em during lessons.hehh -screams

madness.kind of hyper
thats good.hahha.
and i promised myself to finish up my hmwk
im prouddda myself -beams
cause im gg to do it -beams again
hehh.okay im off to watch tv =D (some ppl dont keep promises. do they?) ahaha.

cried alone in the dark 5:24 PM

Hey.im writing to you
Not to tell you
that i stil hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
how we fell apart
how this fell apart

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry

Why weren't you there
on the nights that i cried
its not okay.but im alright

Those were just the
long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years
learning how to survive
and now im writing just to
let you know im stil alright

and all i dream is you

Loving you.feel so right
i cant deny it.in my eye
Oh baby.tell me why
why did you.say goodbye

You were the
The last thing on my mind



left to face myself alone
xuantong
24may
escapist@death-star.com
toh_xuantong@hotmail
i can't abandon everyone

::love.me::
my words that nobody understands
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Fuck off//Leave
The inside bruises
Stop just whats killing me
And now i see how i bleed for you


The person falling here is me
i can hear you whispering



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but you cant even hear me scream

oh my love please dont cry
i'l wash my bloody hands
and we'l start a new life

i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight

Don't you know that
all i really want is you
Gotta know that
all i really need is you

and if i make it through today
will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in pace
and if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same

its me against this world
and i dont care
i dont care
silent screams

the scars run deep down
inside this tattooed body

when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night
do you even wonder for awhile

are you happy out there
in this great wide world

i died in my dreams
wads that supposed to mean
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire