take me away from me

with no one left to save you from yourself
Sunday, August 29

::i'l spread my wings and i'l learn how to fly::

been ponning chi lessons ever since. hehh. just too nice la.
its like i go home at how early? 12ish. tskk. to change and out again.
too guai la. i know. thanks uhh. have been returning home late
for the past few days. tchers' day is coming. that means hol is here!
hahaa. who gives a damn bout the tchers thing. all i want is a day rest
and finally. in like how long. 4years? i bought presents
for nice nice tchers in tuition of course. in school? forget it please.
oh boy. how much do i exactly hate school
loads.

// know all the things that make you who you are-

ive been so dettached from the school lately.
its getting out of sch early and gg home to change and out again
Routines.
i hate that.
but there are changes.
Always.

its a good thing to be so isolated from issues ard the school.
cause once you realized them. its moodswings. and more moodswings
because we all cant stand that fcuking poseur. who apparently think
that he is so -oh-damn-cool- please la. does he owns a mirror at home
i wonder. hahhaa. so sorry but if you think im so goddamn bitchy
i just cant help it. my eyes just cant the sight of you guys. so get lost.
i cant wait. wait for the day .
when things really get heated up.
hahaha. im evil -grins-

had a talk with mr quek.
he really is nice. really
hahaha. im so sorry i cursed you like hell.
for like three years teaching of me
he get nothing from me cept shit.
hohoho. im so glad i knew it.

Ohhh my.
im spending money like water
im so utterly broke now can. and no its not nice.

and hello. my 'OC' show is like gone can.
!$@!? thanks wad. its like simple life has finished as well
no more paris hilton. mischa barton. so sadddd ):

hooked up with chi songs.
thanks to some ppl. hahaa. influenced.

damn long a blogg. since like god knows when
heyys and if you have been droppin by . please taggg.
i'l thankkkkk you. Loads.

and im like so flattered by some ppl's comments.
hahaha. im flying

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_i close my eyes. and let this whole thing pass me by_

>>>>>i'l runaway with you. by my side<<<<<<

BreakAway

cried alone in the dark 11:13 AM

Wednesday, August 25

=D

im just too tired to type out more.
there is a boundary where words
just cant reach the inside of you.i cant explain further

cried alone in the dark 11:59 PM

Friday, August 20

days are more like. eat sleep. and thats all
i come home friggin late after school
and sleep is all i can think about

loaddds happen. lazyy to blogg la
had eng oral today. for the Os
was okay la. but errr stuttered alot

been out til late for these past few days
sorry. haha. i just cant help it
okayy. mayb i'l try to study
next wk in school til late.
i will. hehh

been so very into chinese songs lately
spent hours singing while waiting for oral
m the last one lor can! how long wad
but alright la // very nice indeed

got my prelim timetable.
its like.. OHHH MYYY
-faints please-

cried alone in the dark 11:28 PM

Tuesday, August 10

thanks ah pearlynn. haha.

had practical test today.intended to 'study' (again?!?!)
okayyy but end up buying my earsticks and yes! guess wad?
KFC. ohhh my -slurrrpss-
slackked ard later in wm.went arcade
they stripped off my uniform lor please
how evil. okayy and yes! i own a dogg. haha.
shes so utterly cute la. my sausage dog. LOL
was damn hyper and crazy la.not to mention
that my fren can really sing please
i almost died. of the nice-nest. of course. hehh
ohh and. how can i forget the very nice tattooed
trademarks they left on my hand. thanks alottt wad

new hung up phrase.
OOHHH MY

haha.was on the phone with that crazy person again
today was like extreme hyperrr-ded
maddd la please. hehh
and tmr have like errr. school?
how anti-climax

p10 is playing nice songs today (:
and im yawning like mad now
-plonkks on bed 'nites!

cried alone in the dark 11:44 PM

Monday, August 9

happy birthday singapore!
but im not patriotic enough to wear red.
went town with pearlynn and yupp to 'study' !
ahah.yes! thats wad we 'did' okayy but her pts was just so cute
that we slacked ard instead. her pts was like so very amused by
kinder surprise toys!?! omgg la. but we joined in as well later on
i cant believe their age thou
but her pts? damn cute la
pure entertainment can.

gave the viewing of fireworks a missed.
was tired and decided to go home and watch singapore idol
ahaha. damn funny la please. its absolutely retarded
was on the phone discussing it and laughing like crazy
gotta watch out the next episode. banana guy! ahhaha.

wad a day.
tskk. totally hilarious wad.

cried alone in the dark 2:05 AM

Saturday, August 7

okay sorry. i forgot that i went to eat sukae sushi
had phy class til 12. den went fren hse to slack
the dog is so like carpet i tell you.can fake off as one
and i went for sushi buffet.even made frens with ppl next to us?
so pro la please. haha. it was damn funny and rushed to sch later

i cant commit myself. please understand that

cant stand stupid ppl idiotifying ard
im so sorry that i have this fucking attitude problem
but heyy. i think you guys have a bigger problem than i do
so think about it.

im so very ego and if you cant stand it. leave la please
ohh and. dont try to act infront of me. be real can?
wad i hate doesnt mean you have to hate too just to be cool
im like this. i say wad i dont like
and if you freaking dont like it. you can get away from me

im cursing everyone.
i know im being cursed as well
thanks alot. but know wad? it doesnt get me
and thats just so sad.

cried alone in the dark 11:56 AM

National day celebration was tweeets -thumbs up-
that doesnt mean im so very patriotic la
we just had so much fun that i became crazy
i had to comment the fire was nice
so were the bigbig i-dont-know-wad-you-call-that thing
noise makers were distributed
probably the nicest celebration ever.cept the parade stinks
it doesnt involve me. haha. probably thats why
dismissed and went wm
went home bout 11

Simplicity.

paris hilton is on lime's cover! ahhh -faints-
not to mention mischa and benjamins's poster!
-faints faints double faints-

so much hols for just one national day
but wad more can i say when i have to return to sch on tues
and m having a practical test. tskkk.
so stressful la please
but do you see me mugging at all? haha
failing Os is not impossible.
okay i've gotta work hard
i'l try.

cried alone in the dark 10:29 AM

Hey.im writing to you
Not to tell you
that i stil hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
how we fell apart
how this fell apart

the days i spent
so cold so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry

Why weren't you there
on the nights that i cried
its not okay.but im alright

Those were just the
long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years
learning how to survive
and now im writing just to
let you know im stil alright

and all i dream is you

Loving you.feel so right
i cant deny it.in my eye
Oh baby.tell me why
why did you.say goodbye

You were the
The last thing on my mind



left to face myself alone
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Fuck off//Leave
The inside bruises
Stop just whats killing me
And now i see how i bleed for you


The person falling here is me
i can hear you whispering



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but you cant even hear me scream

oh my love please dont cry
i'l wash my bloody hands
and we'l start a new life

i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight

Don't you know that
all i really want is you
Gotta know that
all i really need is you

and if i make it through today
will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in pace
and if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same

its me against this world
and i dont care
i dont care
silent screams

the scars run deep down
inside this tattooed body

when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night
do you even wonder for awhile

are you happy out there
in this great wide world

i died in my dreams
wads that supposed to mean
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire