Angst

i hate jurong library can. esp that singhh ' stop chasing ppl out larhs
second time had clashes with that idiot.and he threw the beanie at me!
growls.smackk that ugly bastard. and i was there to study can! urghh

i failed my prelim phy mcq o.O
and how am i suppose to pass it now
playydd with swings .got tangled up like wad.
and i have problems waking up every morning
kickked my mum when she had to dragg me up
apparently i refused to go schh la. but i have like papers to take
ahhh. wadeverr la. im leading suchh a stupid life
and mo`shrooms is just too nice la
snowskin mooncake with choc inside
is simply mmm.umm. -thummbs up-
and im surviving on milo and chocs tonight
but its alright. cause its niceeee.
im always like eating after schh.
and its loads. been gaining weight like wad
omggg.
OC is backkk.
faints can. and im killing myself
cause i missed it. was too sleepy. urghh
and i hate you
wads your problem la. stop fucking act the angel
im sick and tired of this all. if i could..
i would freaking beat the fuck hell outta you
and some ppl are just too cute la
hahaha. faints
greenday is nice.
and loads of advert on screen is nice too
obsessions la. insane.
prelims are almost over.
and im still like this. worries-free
days are as usual. waking up. rushh to schh.
curse the stupid paper. and the eyesores ard
ohhh my. cant take this anymore.
but at least. theres stil stuffs to look forward to
and its kbox on monday. hehhs.
im like broke. spend loads in a day.
til i go home with like few cents?!
tskkk lor.
muggg la -chants-
hahaha. shall hypnotize myself
holyyy. and be nerrrdddd
=D

:: unveil the darkness ::

its everywhere i go; its everything i see

no school on fri. went jurong library
had a lil drink at the coffee house first
then chiongg up. tryin to fight space -. -
and started to kop beanbags.
chatted awhile and decided to buy food
then met more of our class ppl.
came back frm the machine with foodd (:
and this person which i shall not name
was so tryin to be nice and take our beanbags
and in the end bang the dustbin down (how clever)
everyone was like staring and laughin at the same time
tskkk. totally throw face. hehhs. but damn funny la pls.
started to do work.
but some of us jus ended up staring into space
and eating. or was it just me?! hahaa.
okayy then there is this corner
and filled with our sch ppl. time for lunch so we
helped each other to takecare of stuffs
end up gossippin bout ppl. hahaa.
wad a fruitful day. we ate slacked chatted and ate again
i slept for awhile (cause the place was too cosy)
and later we headed back home
survivor is nice `grins
and funny! -the capsizing of the boat hehhs
watched lp live in texas and later fell asleeep.

going for a dinner later
must act guai. dressing. hair and everything

chem on monday
narhh aint gg to study for that yucks thing
hmmm. or shld i even go

moodless lately
and no its not pms kayy
i just wanna slp and dont wake up.
that sounds so heavenly.

:: fcuk everything .im hating it all. loose it::

>> wo men de gu shi bu neng wang <<

went wm in search of food after phy prac
and we practically feast on anything
like we haven ate in days.
this is bad.im gainin wt
and not exercising
and the worst thing of all
im brokkkeee.
thanks to my unsatisfiable appetite.
i need food to keep me gg on know
talked for hours
were all aggitated by the facts
and i hate this. the reality.
---about poseurs---
pleaseee. have some sense of originality
dont go ard ripping things off ppl.
and yes i cant stand that
esp when you do it right infront of me.

nights are getting longer
i cant slp til its like how late
contribute that to my ability to mug til late
(if im ever gg to burn midnight oil that is)

-contradiction-
the more i think of it
the more im telling myself not to dwell on it
okayy. its tricky. and very ironic
but i reckon its all bullshit
and thanks. i really needed that
the lame excuses and everything
so now, a red carpet to get out of my sight?!

i hate to feel this way
split personalities.i cant help it
unveil it all
and this may not be who i really m.

[Masked]____mydisguise

wo men de ai. guo le jiu bu zhai hui lai
zhi dao xian zhai. wo hai mo mo de deng dai

prelims have started.and this wk is utter slackness
imagine waking up late and gg to sch like 11 plus
for two days. and the rest? its for slpin. haha.
chem prac on tues.breakfast at macs
damn funny wad.first. i scalded myself la
thanks to some super reactive chemicals
den later my fren seated beside me had the same 'situation
but the worst part is. the solid we testing for flew out of his test tube
tell me bout my lousyness in chem prac
hahaa.okay sorry. that was evil
aircon being installed in hall
temperatures varies. sometimes its really hot.
or m i weird. loads complain bout e coldness
slept all the way when i came home early in the aftnn til evening
and later stuff myself with food. and continued sleeping
and its tv tv and tv all the way. yawns. wads with my body clock
thanks uh pigg with choc swirls.
your cursings of my screwed 'clock came true
girl with choc swirls
aint that delicious?! hehhs

terrible.
my attitude-ness is coming back
mood ruined like theres no end
and diao-ing ppl like nobody's business.
this is crazy
or mayb i just too sensitive
perhaps there is only one reason to it

pissed.
or rather disappointed i wld say
i cant believe you actually said that
thought there were more to this
but heck no. thanks to your blardy weird mind
i have my own pride
and i hate awkwardness
im so glad i sticked to that.

Paranoia.

the need to stop myself.
again. wads my problem
but i know.
i will make it thru
i hope.
sign

wo men de ai. wo ming bai __yi bian cheng ni de fu dan
zhi shi yong yuan __wo dou fang bu kai_zhui hou de wen luan

pics are uploaded
category: outinggs
its being put in the front.
so you need not have to go all the way back
there's this nice photo. which is like gone!
-. -

im tired.
and i need to eat!

okayy. that was weird.

Holidays are meant for playing.
and yes. that ends there.
im not spoiling my life to cram and mugg.

that sounds so academically wrong.
hahaa. but hell do i care.

sentosa ytd. was so fun la please.
especially with some lamers ard?! [[okay. thats so evil
and i must really thank some crazy girl
who offered to help me save energy while swimming
and yes im so very appreciating the thought that
you laughed your intestines out while doing so
which nearly drowned me with gulps of salts.
conclusion:
swimming and laughing at the same time
is extremely tiring. [[esp with the weird laughters

and im like burnt til how red.
in which im not grateful to any hands that lay on me.
cause i'l fucking scream my head off and then slap the hell out of you
okay. mayb things will not be that exaggerated la.
but im just warning .

instant mashed potatoes are not.
i repeat not nice to look at when its not ready
but i dare not say the same as to how it taste -slurrrpss
and yeahh. i realised some ppl's very pro technic in feeding ppl
at which you'l have a very nice view of the food dangling
and flying everywhere even on parts of your body
i need not explain further.

bought accessories again.
and the chicken rice just cldnt get any better

went home rather late
was so badly dehydrated and tired
plonked off to sleep almost immediately

my lips are like how red now. it seems to be protruding.
and seriously i ought to realise that my prelims are like how near

wake me up please.
-slapps-

ohh and bout the trip to sentosa
pictures will be uploaded soon.

+karma karma karma karma
karma. cha me leeeonnnn
you come and go. you come and go+
[[dances]]
im so goddamn hooked up with that song
and i think david de cruz is nice looking
and yes including that very LIL bit of egooismm.
i love it la. haha.

okayys. prelims are after hols.
errr. tell me that on sunday? >,<

finally a year that i gave presents to tchers
and mind you. its not for the school's ((over my dead body))
its time for a long break for them
before they see more students like me in future

thurs. slack my day off at friend's hse
movie marathon can. i din go school la
realized was too tired. hehh
went to pool after that.
and frigging spent like how much

fri. i din go to the farewell party of ncc.sea lor
so sad. got food know. hehh. im just hungry la
cause got stupid class. and my mood was ruined

i tore my poster while takin it carefully out of lime
wad an irony
sheesh

im so not infatuated by cha shao bao.
lols. can just die laughing

holidays are like already here.
heckk. i dont feel a damn thing bout it.
it aint a good sign. like hello!?
i haven been to town since like when
and i have to return school for classes
i miss swensens. my baked rice. and icecream
-slurrpps-
stupid Os la. curses.

fren doing her cooking
so i accompanied her to shop in the supermarket
-roll eyes- we became like housewives can!
ohhh my lor. can just faint. but was pretty fun
errr. just hope she dont spoil everything while cooking
hehhs. its just a word of caution la.
and we ate and drank like nobody's business
the apple stiz was nice! esp. the melted choc (:
cab to her home and help put her groceries. haha
and went home later. to prepare for class la
which made me gave the party thing a miss
damn this whole thing la. fcuk fcuk.

i swear after Os. im gonna party like mad.
but im stil partyin like now!? wads the diff.
ahhaa. probably w/o the 'like mad'
yeahhh.

wads with this talk about the future
tskkk. im waiting for my lunch
and starring at this errr. squashed fly
i think i shall sleep. thou i just woke up not long.
but seriously. i prefer eating. yumms.

chi songs. again
>> wo hui fa zhe dai. ran hou wang zi ni
jie zhe jing jing bi shang yan ///
kui dao- jayz
jiangnan-junjie

[[----nobody said it was easy. nobody said it wld be this hard----]]
____please take me back to the start____

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